Tuesday, January 16, 2018

in the motion

set in motion

"What's wrong?" Ivy's question awoke Simon..finally. He'd meander most of the day and almost forgot it was lunchtime.

"Oh..Valentina's sick." He looked at Ivy who seemed more genuine than he remembered. There was a certain beauty to her that couldn't be accomplished with makeup. He thought that way about Valentina, too. If only she were here.

"Oh, Strep is going around." Ivy told him. She got in the lunch line with him. "How are you feeling?"

"OK, I guess." But he wasn't quite sure. He felt he was in a fog of some kind. He was tired. He did his best not to be at home these days. Something, just wasn't quite right with his parents, but he wasn't sure what it might be. Xander's guest wasn't there anymore. He'd gone back to Xander's house.

"You've been working so hard." She told him. "Maybe, you need a break. I didn't do any studying during winter break."

"It's better to keep busy." He was certain of it. If he kept a tight schedule, life would go on. He didn't have to care what happened at home, he'd decided. But he needed Valentina. She kept him on track. She was the perfect assistant. "The school year, will be over..before you know it."

"And then what?" She looked at him blankly.

It was a sad thought. He'd enjoyed working on the play productions. His mind was full of directions and how emotions should be played out..and yet..he had none of his own.

"Who knows?" He smiled, thinking he was positive, but actually it was just acting.

Monday, January 15, 2018

along came love

along came love

"Are you sick?" Her raspy voice was kind of sexy. Ollie couldn't help but smile all over when he heard her voice over the phone.

He was getting ready for school but when his phone rang and he saw it was from Valentina, he answered. Soon his open smile was even lipped. He didn't think he was sick. He didn't think he'd made her sick.

"No, I'm fine." Yet the doubts were there. He could be, if he thought about it long enough. Ollie cleared his throat. "What's the matter?"

"Oh, I'm sure its a cold." Yet her voice sounded as if it were worse.  She mentioned her mother's pineapple cough syrup.

Ollie made a face of disgust. He thought she needed something from the drugstore.

"You..you should see a doctor." He told her.

"I'll be fine." She paused, as if she couldn't say more, but then she did. "I..just wanted to know, how..how you were."

"I'm fine. You, need to rest." He wanted to tell her he loved her, but he was sure she knew this. Wasn't that why they'd connected, again? "I'll..I'll be thinking of you." And he would.

"I..I wish..I could..see you." She told him.

"I want to see you, too." He smiled, thinking of her heart shaped face. Her innocent sweet smile. Yes, he knew she was certainly too good for him, but somehow, she made him feel stronger. "I'll drop by, after school."

She didn't tell him, not too.

Sunday, January 14, 2018

I am displaced

I am displaced

In her heart, Valentina knew who she wanted, but then came Simon.

Oh..Simon..what could she do? Valentina, hesitated, wishing someone was around, she could introduce him too..in the hallway, after school near the theater. She knew he really didn't need her. He was so busy these days. She felt as if she was in the way.

Honestly, she was so bored. Maybe, that's why she'd thought of Ollie so much.

Of course, in her dizzy head, she knew her mother wouldn't think she was doing the right thing. God knows, how upset her father would be, but it felt like home when she was with Ollie.

She went into the theater when it opened and took a seat and pulled out the desk top so she could focus on homework. That was always the way it went. She had this down by the minute.

Simon would do his thing with the cast, do a little acting and then later he would take her home. She was always home by 10 p.m. About 8 p.m. she'd go out and get sandwiches from someone's house and bring the dinner back to the actors. Sometimes, she swept off stage and then would sweep as soon as everyone got off the stage. She always made sure nothing was out of order before it was time to close the theater.

She thought about texting Ollie, but maybe it was best to be just as aloof as he was. Hopefully, he missed her. She knew he did. And Valentina kept from smiling about it, because it was like some other world when she was with Ollie.

But she felt sad, that it couldn't be this world.

As the night went on, her throat felt as if a hot volcano was about to spill and she would be sick. She thought of all the remedies she should try, like apple cider vinegar and ginger with a dash of red pepper. Maybe she'd try it as soon as she got home. She couldn't be sick.

"I don't know what I'd do without you." Simon told her on the drive home.

But she didn't speak. She smiled. She wanted to tell him she might be coming down with strep throat.

Soon enough, they were in the driveway. Simon leaned over, about to kiss her lips, but she wouldn't let him.

The thought of Ollie came to mind. Not him. She hated to do this to Simon.

"Look, I might have to stay home tomorrow." She finally said she was sick, and he should stay away from her.

He only nodded.

She got out of the car and for a moment, she felt perfectly fine. By the time she got to her room to put her things away, she knew she needed the pineapple cough syrup her mother made.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

On a cold cold day

on a cold cold day

"What is it? You, need from me?" Kramer knew that look on Ollie's face. He'd gotten off the phone with Holly who was giving him the third degree over Dara. Even when Holly wasn't here, she was the big sis she always was, reaching out to make his life miserable.

"Nothing." Ollie said. They were meeting up at the grocery store. Kramer was getting off. Ollie was coming on. It was like changing of the guard in Siberia at the icy and black snow parking lot.

"You..you like Dara, don't you?" Kramer wanted to know. He'd made a mistake of sending Holly a picture of her. She said Dara was too fat and looked like she needed to be in a zoo. It was hurtful to hear, because he was very much taken with Dara.

She could cook. She would buy him things and well, she was a QUEEN in bed and her bed was actually king sized.

"Oh..I don't really know her, but I'm sure she's nice." Ollie nodded, telling him he needed someone nice after all the hell he went through with Birdie and losing Natalie to the Flower Boy, Joon.

"She works at a bank you know, not  just..one of  those..teller, you see, but a really good job..where..she doesn't even have to work at the bank, but she can work at home and she even trains people in Arizona and she..she won this trip to Hawaii ..and..and she wants me to go with her." Kramer told him.

"Wow, that's great." Ollie's smile was open as if he was pleased for Kramer.

Kramer gave him a big hug and thanked him for being happy for him. "You're, the best, man." He grinned. "How... you doing ...with the ladies, these days?"

Ollie gritted a smile, but Kramer knew something had to be up. Ollie was happy.

"It's nothing really." He stuffed his cold hands into the pockets of his skinny jeans.

"You, can tell me, man..you can tell me, anything." Kramer wanted to guess. "You and Candy?" He hit him on the shoulder. ready to play fight.

Ollie shook his head, no and did his best not to let it show that he got lucky.

"Oh man, you and Ivy? Finally?" Kramer questioned with kissy lips as he did a dance just to keep warm in the cold.

"You, don't know her." Ollie said.

"You...just don't want me to know. I tell you everything about Dara." Kramer furrowed his brow.

"Yes, you do." Ollie nodded. "Um, I dunno, I want to think it's OK. But..I don't really know, sometimes."

"Does she have a boyfriend?" Kramer asked.

Ollie pouted with a nod.

"Well, you should make a stand." Kramer told him.

"Its not that easy." Ollie bit his bottom lip. He stared at Kramer who could see the tears in his eyes.

"Oh..man..you really got it bad..don't you? Who is she?" Kramer wanted to know, but Ollie wouldn't tell.